I'm seriously going bonkers !
2day , is 1 of my bad luck days !

the lecturer required assignment leaders to make appointment with her , to get her approval of our article findings . . i went to her office at 2pm . . and it lasted not more than 5mins . . i was so damn pissed off . .

it was juz 2 10pm . . i still gotta meet up my fren at 3pm , to pass me the textbook i needed and return those i dont need . . . So, i went to the library . . . hoping i could juz study a little bit of Next Monday's Macroeconomic's quiz . . .

2 30pm . . roomie told me i've accidentally locked her out from our room . . . i looked at the time . . not knowing what to do . . therefore, i contact my fren to meet up earlier . . and went back . .

3pm . . . i was like so fucked up already . . . i conviced myself it still not that bad . . at least i can take a quick shower b4 another meeting at 4PM . . then after that, i could stay at library til 8PM for another meeting . . at the moment i was going out , my hp rang . . my leader told me meeting postphone to tomorrow . . .

at that time . . i AM really feeling restless . . . i just sat down . . . staring blankly , not knowing what expression to express . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

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i had my horrible nightmare again . . . .

the other night , i had 1 of the most horrible nightmare ever . . i dream that i was driving around aimlessly . . . in a somewhat weird city . . . the city resembles much like . . . . Melaka Raya . . . because all i could see was just empty shop lots . . abandoned shop lots . . the streets were deserted . . . I finally stopped my car to have a good look where i was . . . Then . . . out of a sudden , i could hear a loud honk . . . it was a train's honk . . . honking at me loudly . . . Suddenly, i realized i'm on the middle of the railway tracks . . . I tried to start my car back again . . . My car failed me . . . I looked out the driver's window . . i could see lights were shining at me . . . . it's getting brighter and brighter every moment with the loud honking . . . . . . . i panicked . . i opened my car door . . hoping there's still enough time and space for me to run . . . . . . . . the moment i opened my door . . the train's head was just right in front of me . . . . . . . .
. . . . i awaken , feeling sweaty all over . . i checked the time . . it was 5AM . . . i realized i was catching my breathe too . . . . it felt so real . . . .


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last night, i was running in the jungle . . there were a few other people running with me too . . i remembered i was running with a guy . . the guy felt so familiar . . yet unknown at the same time . . we were running away from " something " . . . " something " was chasing us . . . Whatever it was, it was chasing us fast . . i saw 1 lady tripped and fell off . . nobody stopped and helped her up . . i tried . . . but the guy hold my hand and urge me to run faster . . . moments later, i heard women's high pitched screaming from behind . . . it was so loud and eerie . . we finally board into a ship . . . I was just looking by the sea . . . suddenly , i saw this very innocent and nerdy small boy standing next to me . . i dont remember running together with him back in the jungle . . while i was looking at him . . . he slowly turned his head towards me . . he gave me a eerie smile at me . . and pointed his fingers at the deep blue sea . . . I could see there's a shadow. . . something is coming towards the ship . . When i realize it was a torpedo , it was already too late . . . .
It was so real . . i felt water rushing through me . . i could hear the explosion . . .


i know everybody would say the same old thing to me . . " its just a dream . .. ." . . i know it myself too . . but i cant help feeling uneasy about it . . it bothers me a lot . . . dreaming ur own death 2 nights in a row ? i guess nobody could understand that feeling . . i dont even know how to express that kind of feeling if i want to share it with others . . .. . . i know i sound very insane at this moment . . . . . . . . . .