the bullshit break

yeah, so it's the so called midterm break again . . . bull shit to the word break . . it' s not a break at all . . . a break i imagine would be relaxing . . traveling . . carefree mood 24/7. . . fcuk the break... i'm not enjoying as everything is going at the moment . . . .

suddenly i feel myself really so stupid . . . what the hell is wrong with me . . . all the things i sacrifice was taken as granted . . wtf . . u think i dint change ?? try go and ask my close friends !! yet u still keep complaining complaining !!!!! as if i dun need to complain !! this is so pissing me off !!

maybe you're just not the kind . . . or is it just me losing strength to carry on . . .
i'm wondering aloud